Prior to my admission at Montrose my life was/had become unmanageable and totally out of control. I was working twelve hours a day and getting home late, which lead to “takeaways” for dinner most night’s– not sleeping well, surviving some nights only on three hours of sleep. Watching TV series and never leaving the house on weekends, declining all invites to social events – pretty much becoming a recluse trapped in this vicious circle of eating, getting bigger, more depressed and going out less. I had reached a point in my life where I was desperate for something to give way. I had tried Herbal Life, Weigh Less, dieticians, etc. and nothing had worked.
At my Montrose interview, I was asked what I would class as an eating disorder – my response: ”Bulimic and Anorexic. Definitely not me, the Overeater – I just like food, nothing works for me; I have tried everything and had no luck.” I am not sure what I thought I would get from this programme but it is nothing that I expected it to be. The first step was the realization that I actually had an illness. That this was not something I chose to have, but that life had dealt me this disease which I only discovered once I was at Montrose.
Montrose has given me my life back.
They have made me take a good look at myself and I have found recovery through the Twelve Steps. I am not cured as this is a lifetime change and I am sure that I will still have days when I just want to give up. But I now know that I am allowed to ask for help when I struggle, that I can go to meetings; there are other people out there who have the same struggles and who will offer support and guidance. This is something I never thought would be possible.
I will/am forever grateful for the opportunity that was offered to me to be part of this programme – even if I questioned every single thing that was said to me during lectures/sessions. The Team of counselors and nurses are fantastic in every way –always there to support or lend a shoulder to cry on.
After eight weeks I realize that I cannot always be just FINE; that there is always something underlying and when I am asked how I feel, I will now take a step back and think about it before I just say “FINE”.
So Team, thank you for all the patience that you have had. I know I was not the easiest client. I appreciate all that you have done for me and for showing me that light at the end of the tunnel.
I am/will be forever grateful…
South African Client
35 years old