Before coming to Montrose I had no life, just an existence controlled by food and an exercise obsession. I was scared having suffered with an Eating Disorder for 28 years in and out of various treatment centres in England. I knew when coming to South Africa I had to make the choice to learn to do things differently.
Upon arriving at Montrose I was very impressed by the cleanliness of the house, the warm welcome I received and the information relayed to me. Being so far from home it was very comforting. I cannot believe what a life changing six months it has been. It has not always been easy but the wonderful support from the Team gave me hope. They carried me when I was weak and taught me tools that I will always have with me.
The Clinical Programme taught me so much, the feedback I received from groups enabled me to look within and the following weeks in Phase 3 opened my eyes to opportunities the world has to offer. A real chance to give back: I was shocked at the degree of poverty at the voluntary work I did, but overwhelmed with emotions when I could make a difference.
Montrose did for me what no one has ever managed to achieve before. They were consistently stronger than my ED and on no occasion would they tolerate my ED. Believe me I tried and tried and tried again but still the boundary was in place and as my ED grew weaker my life became stronger. I now have a relationship with food I never thought possible. The chefs do an amazing job; they are so passionate about what they do, always providing us with delicious meals. The nurses become like your second Mother. They really care and are always there to chat to or if you need a shoulder to cry on. I have so much space in my head now to think about other things. I can finally say I have accepted myself and am very grateful to all those who have walked a part of my journey with me.
I never thought I would be sad to leave a treatment centre but Montrose will always hold a very special place in my heart.
33 years old