My time at Montrose has been simultaneously one of the hardest and most rewarding of my adult life. From being here I have come to terms with the fact that I have no control over my eating disorder, and that self-will or “I’ll do better tomorrow” are impossible promises to keep. On a most base level, Montrose Manor has given me my longest period of sobriety and abstinence, bringing me clarity of mind and ease of spirit for which I couldn’t be more grateful. I have also now been provided the tools to live a life in recovery, to build authentic and nourishing relationships with the people I care about, and to not live in the grips of an eating disorder.
I was also that person reading this thinking “I haven’t hit my rock bottom” or “I’m not bad enough”. But regardless of where we’re at, the chance of life and taking on this insidious disease is something everyone deserves. It IS a disease, and though I cannot promise to be “cured” or “fixed”, I am more “me” than I have felt in years. I actually see and want to build a future for myself, which certainly wasn’t the case before I came.
Hannah UK 2016